I have decided to go public again. I am reading others' blogs, I am learning and getting inspired and maybe it is unfair to keep my blog private. Then I think there is nothing really inspirational about my struggles. And then I think some more and realize that we are just all struggling together, reaching for whatever goals we set for ourselves. Sometimes I just don't feel like I have much to contribute but after some thinking I realized that if somebody does not want to read my ramblings, they always have that option, it is not like I am shouting about my life into everybody's ears forcing them to pay attention. And if there is even one person who can benefit from my writing then I will have been all worth it.
A lot has happened over the past few weeks. The good news is that I started running again! I got a green light to test Mr Achilles who has been bothering me for way too long. My initial runs are very encouraging, there is no pain and occasional tightness goes away quickly enough not to bother me so much. I have lost some cardio fitness but that will improve with time.
I am so happy I can run again because there is also a bad news. I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I posted about it several times, I think, and there is so much ranting about it that I won't be linking here to those posts. If anyone is interested they may go back and read or use labels to find related posts. I am over the initial shock and now I am in the stage of educating myself. They caught my cancer early enough that I know I will come out of it OK physically. Emotionally though is another story since I am not a very strong person. The specialist I wanted to see is coming back from vacations today and I will be making my appointment later today and working on a long list of questions.
I will end with more good stuff. I've been spending a lot of time in Nature who has always been a wonderful mother to me. We have done some marvelous hikes and planning on some more before the school year starts. I wish my hubby could join us more often on those but he has already took a lot of time from work to care for his dying mother (what a year he is having) and for going with me on my tests so whatever time he has left he wants to save for my future docs visits.
I am so lucky to be able to spend some time in the mountains or in the forest now. I just immerse myself in Nature's beauty and all troubling thoughts melt away.