My cancer experience so far has been nothing but a long list of assurances that 'it is probably nothing' or 'after we do this or that you will be fine'.
First mammogram results were 'nothing really to be concerned about, but just in case'
My second mammogram showed 'nothing serious but lets do biopsy just in case'.
My biopsy.... you get the picture.
Surgery was also going to be one of those 'have it and we are done'.
So when I went to have my stitches out and the dr said that I will need radiation and probably hormone blocker therapy after all, I have just about had it. I was so shocked that I did not even ask any questions. I told my husband not to bother to come with me for this routine visit so he was not around to ask questions either.
This is NOT how it is supposed to be. Is there is such a thing as supposed to be? Am I just caught in the medical machinery gears and all I need to do is break free or do I really need more treatment? Friends tell me to go and check with holistic doctors. OK, these are friends who've been living on supplements for years and they get sick more often than I do. There is a big competition for sick people out there and both holistic and traditional doctors would love to treat me but what I want to know now is if I really still need to be treated.
First mammogram results were 'nothing really to be concerned about, but just in case'
My second mammogram showed 'nothing serious but lets do biopsy just in case'.
My biopsy.... you get the picture.
Surgery was also going to be one of those 'have it and we are done'.
So when I went to have my stitches out and the dr said that I will need radiation and probably hormone blocker therapy after all, I have just about had it. I was so shocked that I did not even ask any questions. I told my husband not to bother to come with me for this routine visit so he was not around to ask questions either.
This is NOT how it is supposed to be. Is there is such a thing as supposed to be? Am I just caught in the medical machinery gears and all I need to do is break free or do I really need more treatment? Friends tell me to go and check with holistic doctors. OK, these are friends who've been living on supplements for years and they get sick more often than I do. There is a big competition for sick people out there and both holistic and traditional doctors would love to treat me but what I want to know now is if I really still need to be treated.
So I am going to see another doctor (traditional) and possibly another (holistic) and maybe even another and ask ten thousand questions. Then I am going to be really confused.
It is enough being frustrated when one gets sick, why can't we just trust the system that it will do what is right? Why do I need to become a doctor myself to get appropriate medical help? Sure, I am curious about medicine, cancers and so on, but right now I would like not to have to spend time educating myself but healing.
In the meantime hubby is calling dr #1 to find out what the story is. Temperatures are around 100F so there is no way I will go for a run now and this is what I could use right now. There is always a nice glass of red wine. It will go well with the flowers my hubby got me on the way back from work.
End of rant.
It is enough being frustrated when one gets sick, why can't we just trust the system that it will do what is right? Why do I need to become a doctor myself to get appropriate medical help? Sure, I am curious about medicine, cancers and so on, but right now I would like not to have to spend time educating myself but healing.
In the meantime hubby is calling dr #1 to find out what the story is. Temperatures are around 100F so there is no way I will go for a run now and this is what I could use right now. There is always a nice glass of red wine. It will go well with the flowers my hubby got me on the way back from work.
End of rant.
